Nearing the End of an Era

Hi radiant soul!

Last week we wrapped up the last universal law which brings a brand-new opportunity to this space this week.  New isn’t always exciting though, is it?  New has a way of stirring uncertainty, apprehension, lack of confidence.  As one chapter closes the unknown of the next chapter can bring with it a wide array of feelings.  Clients reflect this to me all the time as they share the excitement and fear that comes with having a baby, getting married, starting a new job, and various other life changes.  There is one thing life has consistently showed me so far this year…it often doesn’t go the way you expect it to go.  And what I mean by this is specifically in regard to how you expect it to feel!

Travis and I are nearing the next new chapter of our situation where our family will finally reunite!  Yes, I’m EXCITED, and I’m also lonely and sad and a montage of many other uncomfortable emotions I didn’t expect to feel at this chapter in the journey.  Part of what got me through this year was processing all I could in the moment and to keep moving forward.  This isn’t uncommon but what doesn’t get processed doesn’t magically disappear.  It’s there waiting for you and that ‘rainy day’, or in this case the realization that what could be purely exciting has some unexpected companion emotions riding along with it.  This makes having tools to process things in life as they arise so dang valuable!!

Also in complete honesty, it’s been a long time since a string of good things have come into our lives.  Of course, there are good things always coming, but I mean the tidal wave of good where you expect more and more good because you’re on a roll and things couldn’t go wrong even if you tried.  In fact, we’ve experienced the opposite.  One good thing, such as being told Travis was getting released under supervision a couple months ago wasn’t actually so great.  It was all a scam riding the tidal wave of difficulties such as Travis not being allowed to go to a halfway house even though he qualified under the Second Chance Act, his attempts to transfer to Yankton were denied (where we would have been able to see each other regularly…we have not seen each other since January 11th), and he’s been given four different release dates so far.

I think it’s been four so far, I actually quit counting because there’s never an explanation, and there have been no conduct or behavioral factors to influence the change in calculations.  The most recent date change came just this past week.  Many of the challenges we have endured while Travis has been away, we have experienced quietly.  I am passionate about a tell all someday, not because I am used to living my life in such an unfiltered way, but because I know I have a calling to do so.  I know what has been unfathomable had I not lived it will be for many others as well, and the value of knowing these realities is priceless.

However, what feels aligned and right at this time is to pause the blog for a brief bit and truly be present for myself, my husband, my family, and my friends.  It’s unclear if the release date will change again in the future or if this will be the real deal.  To be honest, this was really upsetting to me when we began the game of musical release dates but was yet another area of surrender.  Once I released my attachment to the sooner the better, I have found peace with the unknown.  After all, the one constant in life is ongoing change. 

The more adaptable you are, the smoother ride through life you will have! 

I want to personally thank each of you for following our journey, reading my musings this past year, coming along for the ride, and doing life together!  This has been a heavy experience, and I adore each of you for being bold and brave to crack open the content week after week!  I truly mean it from the very bottom of my heart;  thank you…I couldn’t have done it without you!!!!  I mean it.  For real.  Seriously! 

Ok, I think you believe me now.

Travis will continue to receive your letters for at least the remainder of this month.  I will still be present on all my other platforms so let’s continue our journey on Facebook, Instagram, the Stronger Together Community, and every Wednesday live on the Eyes Wide Open radio show.  Writing is a deep passion of mine so I will come back here as soon as it feels aligned and true.  Of course, in the meantime and for always, I send all my love!

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Peace & Love,
Janessa